hmm, a lot of thoughts are going through my head now, yesterday, gabriel failed his test for the 3rd time, but boss decided to change it into a revision flight instead. thank god for that.. even though there are times when i dislike him, but i don't want to see that chance of chasing the dream being taken away from someone, it's harsh. while we were all waiting for boss's decision, it felt like waiting outside the OT for the doctor's verdict.. the saddest thing is to hear gabriel say that if he fails he doesn't want to fight on anymore. not because he has lost passion, but because he has lost courage. he said he didnt know how to face the panel of instructors at the review board, don't know how to face his family for that failure.. it's painful to see that scene as a friend, to see someone give in to failure.

we all wanted to graduate with flying colours and be the best trainee, but now i really hope we all graduate, and still be alive.

no negative thoughts before i sleep, in 10 hours time, 2 targets are going down!